I am so far behind...so, so, so far behind. It's Day 52...and I'm still stuck on Day 49. Well...not stuck per se...just wonderfully pre-occupied these past couple of days. I could probably spend the next two months telling you that I'm thankful for that preoccupation...but that wouldn't be all that exciting...would it?
So here goes.
I'm going on a date on Monday. ::Ahem:: No need to laugh...I'll wait til you're done. Good? Ok...continuing on.
I'm going on a date on Monday with an incredibly attractive, sweet, caring, kind, wonderful human being...who (get this) actually wants to be seen with me in public. (Hard to believe, I know).
For all intents and purposes, my post could end here, but what fun would that be?
What's even better about going on a date...is that my previously-referenced "psycho ex" (though admittedly, that title seems a bit harsh), not only knows about said date...but gave me his blessing. Whether or not that blessing was heartfelt, doesn't really matter. He knows, and I don't have to tiptoe around. Don't have to worry that my phone will ring, or I'll be inundated with text messages. I don't have to feel guilty, or bad. Don't have to have my heart in one place when my mind is in another.
If you knew our past, you'd understand why it was such a HUGE deal for me and my (at times) non-existent backbone to look him right in the eye...say I'm going on a date...say I like the guy a ton...and seal the deal with a "I'm sorry, I know this hurts you...but I'm really not sorry, because he makes me the happiest I've been in a long time."
It's like 1,000 pounds of pressure, guilt and frustration evaporated off my shoulders. It's a new lease on life, a new beginning...it's exciting!
I have a date on Monday.
And I'm thankful for that :)
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