One of the most wonderful things about finding yourself again...finding your spark...your happiness...is that it restores your confidence...and with that confidence a renewed sense of self...and self worth.
I deserve to be blissfully happy...and I'm not settling for anything less. Today was proof of that :)
I stood up for myself...like REALLY stood up for myself. In front of a room full of people...saying words that were hard to hear, but needed to be said. That may not sound all that shocking to most of you. I'm opinionated. I'm loud. I have a big mouth. I'm pretty direct.
That is...until I love you.
The more I care, the harder it is for me to hurt someone. Even if I get the guts to stand up to you once, I'm easily swayed, easily woo'd (is that a word?)...easily persuaded that my simple act of bravery was wrongly directed.
You start crying after I break up with you? My instinct is to hug you and wipe your tears...not walk away. You ignore my phone calls for weeks, and then finally call? I'll avoid the first call (because I'm tough!) but once I listen to that voicemail...I'm a sucker, and I'll inevitably end up calling you back. I'm a nurturer plain and simple...and that doesn't bode well for my status as a bad-ass.
But today? I stood up for myself...spoke my mind to someone (that at one point) meant the world to me...and I didn't back down...and that's fantastic.
I don't need to settle...not for anything less than pure bliss.
I stood up for myself today...and didn't back down.
And I'm thankful for that :)
I deserve to be blissfully happy...and I'm not settling for anything less. Today was proof of that :)
I stood up for myself...like REALLY stood up for myself. In front of a room full of people...saying words that were hard to hear, but needed to be said. That may not sound all that shocking to most of you. I'm opinionated. I'm loud. I have a big mouth. I'm pretty direct.
That is...until I love you.
The more I care, the harder it is for me to hurt someone. Even if I get the guts to stand up to you once, I'm easily swayed, easily woo'd (is that a word?)...easily persuaded that my simple act of bravery was wrongly directed.
You start crying after I break up with you? My instinct is to hug you and wipe your tears...not walk away. You ignore my phone calls for weeks, and then finally call? I'll avoid the first call (because I'm tough!) but once I listen to that voicemail...I'm a sucker, and I'll inevitably end up calling you back. I'm a nurturer plain and simple...and that doesn't bode well for my status as a bad-ass.
But today? I stood up for myself...spoke my mind to someone (that at one point) meant the world to me...and I didn't back down...and that's fantastic.
I don't need to settle...not for anything less than pure bliss.
I stood up for myself today...and didn't back down.
And I'm thankful for that :)
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